Lately, I've been vigorously editing my upcoming debut novel "Awakened". The story is so timely and one that I truly believe God has poured inside of me to share to the selected audience who will read it. Well, it has had me on my P's and Q's. With my 9 month old daughter now walking and my son being very inquisitive and active, I hardly get much time in the day to put towards writing/editing. So, I've been learning how to effectively manage my day and schedule my writing times during their naps.
Thank God for naps!
Mama's everywhere know what I'm talking about.
Well, I was washing the dishes when I just about had a breaking point. You see, the past few weeks, I've been on a roll with editing and really preparing to wrap this thing up so I can start promoting, marketing, etc since I'm independently publishing it. It just seemed like the world around me didn't exist. Have you ever felt you were so focused on something until life just seemed to pass right on by? Yep, that's how I felt. And, that's pretty sad considering I have two small children and am married. What I noticed around me began to frighten me.
It wasn't that my priorities were shifting a bit (although they slightly were), I just started to feel almost unworthy to be in the shoes that I'm in.
Here's what I mean...
I am very blessed to be able to stay home with my children. I know this is a desire for many. But there have been times when I've felt awful for not really indulging in the livelihood of stay-at-home-motherhood.
This thought echoed over and over in my mind.
I am NOT good at this.
I'm not your average mom who bakes or sows.
I don't know how to work a sowing machine.
I love to cook, but I'd rather write.
I can't stand doing laundry. (It's my mom's therapy!)
I'd rather clean a toilet than a dirty diaper.
I'd rather deal with a rude client than a toddler with a tantrum
Can I be real?
And what convicts me every time is when my husband comes home from work and the house is a mess with kids toys everywhere when they should be neatly put up.
I could go on...
But after a long talk with my husband and edification from the Lord, I realized something.
God doesn't expect us to be perfect. We are supposed to strive for perfection in Christ. But that takes time, discipline and consistency.
You see, the mother's who got this thing down to a T, like my mom, can tell you it wasn't always easy. In fact, they still are a work in progress.
It doesn't matter where we are in life, we're growing. We all are. But in order to work towards perfecting a craft, whether it's the art of parenting, marriage, or whatever your career is, you've got to seek God's wisdom and maintain a level of discipline. You can always be better at it... but don't beat yourself up about it!
I'd like to encourage you today, if your feelings are similar to the ones posted here today. God knows you aren't perfect, and he doesn't expect you to be perfect. Trust God that he can give you the proper strength and ability as you work towards perfecting your craft. Put it in His hands. Allow him to remove any negative or impure thoughts. And then trust that he'll guide you right.
I know he will.
Thank you for visiting The Ready Writer. I pray this devotional has blessed you today. Have a blessed week in our Lord Jesus Christ!
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